I was calculating our ages when you become 18-year-old. I will be 52 and your father will be 58! I was freaked out again! I hope we are not too boring for you that time :) Then I thought about our other friends and I realized we are more or less the same. Most of them are our ages and have a new born. Some don’t have kids yet, some are not married yet (although you may say it is not a requirement to have kids, but at the time, it is a considerable factor!) So, I guess you won’t feel awkward to introduce us to your friends: these are my parents! LoL (By the way, do you still use “LOL”?! )
But I am not a freak all the times … we have a lot of fun too. We have started to select names for you. I thought you may like to have a middle name too and your father also agreed. So, you will have a Persian first name and a Canadian (!!!) middle name in case you prefer to use it at school. I don’t know … I was thinking that you may also like to choose your middle name yourself. So, we may leave it blank for now! Anyhow, now I have a list of names on my whiteboard and we add a new one to that every now and then.
We also gave ourselves a tour at Babies-R-Us on Saturday. That was fun too. It was always my pleasure to go to Toys-R-Us and babaies-R-us to shop for friends, but shopping for you …. Well, don’t ever compare the joy :) We examined the strollers, the car seats, the cribs, the plastic bathtubs and everything else. I told the CSR girl that “we have no clue what we should buy” and she gave me a “baby need checklist” that will keep us busy for the next months.
What else? I am wondering what you should call us. I mean, I was thinking that you can call me by my name instead of calling me “maman” or “mommy”. You can call me “Moni joon” :) I don’t know …. I think you will feel closer and its more friendly to call us by names. Your father thinks the opposite way. He likes to be called “Baba” or “Daddy”. I think he prefers “Baba”. He said calling parents by their named feel cold, distant and weird. Although, Baba and Maman feel close, he said.
I am not sure yet …. I am still thinking. Maybe I should ask my friend to vote.
Also I was thinking to ask your grandparents what they would like to be called by you. I don’t want to think of every detail. Let them to choose. Makes life easier for me. LoL
Today I booked to get the H1N1 shot (the Swine Flu vaccine). It is getting more and more serious and more threatening. We finally decided to get the shot, although it’s the first year and I think there are lots of unknowns about it but it is highly recommended by the Public Health and my doctor.
Anyways Kiddo …. I think of everyyyyyyyy thing you may think of, but there is just one thing that I don’t like to think of: the Labor pain! We will see how it goes …. We have about another 4.5 month to go. It’s too early to think about delivery.
Sweet Sleep Baby
But I am not a freak all the times … we have a lot of fun too. We have started to select names for you. I thought you may like to have a middle name too and your father also agreed. So, you will have a Persian first name and a Canadian (!!!) middle name in case you prefer to use it at school. I don’t know … I was thinking that you may also like to choose your middle name yourself. So, we may leave it blank for now! Anyhow, now I have a list of names on my whiteboard and we add a new one to that every now and then.
We also gave ourselves a tour at Babies-R-Us on Saturday. That was fun too. It was always my pleasure to go to Toys-R-Us and babaies-R-us to shop for friends, but shopping for you …. Well, don’t ever compare the joy :) We examined the strollers, the car seats, the cribs, the plastic bathtubs and everything else. I told the CSR girl that “we have no clue what we should buy” and she gave me a “baby need checklist” that will keep us busy for the next months.
What else? I am wondering what you should call us. I mean, I was thinking that you can call me by my name instead of calling me “maman” or “mommy”. You can call me “Moni joon” :) I don’t know …. I think you will feel closer and its more friendly to call us by names. Your father thinks the opposite way. He likes to be called “Baba” or “Daddy”. I think he prefers “Baba”. He said calling parents by their named feel cold, distant and weird. Although, Baba and Maman feel close, he said.
I am not sure yet …. I am still thinking. Maybe I should ask my friend to vote.
Also I was thinking to ask your grandparents what they would like to be called by you. I don’t want to think of every detail. Let them to choose. Makes life easier for me. LoL
Today I booked to get the H1N1 shot (the Swine Flu vaccine). It is getting more and more serious and more threatening. We finally decided to get the shot, although it’s the first year and I think there are lots of unknowns about it but it is highly recommended by the Public Health and my doctor.
Anyways Kiddo …. I think of everyyyyyyyy thing you may think of, but there is just one thing that I don’t like to think of: the Labor pain! We will see how it goes …. We have about another 4.5 month to go. It’s too early to think about delivery.
Sweet Sleep Baby
ماندانا اول از همه اينکه خيلي روان و گيرا مي نويسي. آدم از کلمه ي اول که شروع مي کنه نمي تونه ول کنه نوشته ات رو. ميترا راست مي گه؛ اين جا هم معلومه که هرکلامي رو که مي نويسي راجع بهش فکر مي کني. من واقعا لذت بردم.
پاسخحذفنکته ي دوم و خيلي خيلي جذاب براي من اينه که تو شديدا آدم واقع بيني هستي. به نظرم اين عاليه. يک آدم واقع بين، حساس و اهل فکر و از همه مهمتر هنرمند. من لذت مي برم که مي بينم کسي با اينکه مي دونه دنيا خيلي چيزهاي زشت داره ولي مي تونه با شجاعت و هنرمندي لحظه هاي خوب براي خودش و اطرافيانش بسازه. تو بي نظيري. شايد هيچ وقت اينقدر خوب نمي شناختمت ماندانا .
چند سال پيش که خيلي قاطي کرده بودم يک متن از نيچه خوندم در مورد هنرمند. واقعا بهم کمک کرد:
«جهان هراس آور است،
اما تسليم هراس نشدن يعني به نداي جنگ دنيا پاسخ مثبت دادن، و در برابر قدرتش، قدرت خود را سامان دادن،
کار انسان آزاد است.
ديونوسوس بي پايان است.
مي رقصد، چون رقص بي پاياني جسم را در فضا نمايان مي کند.
زندگي هراس آور است، اما از آن تيره تر و هولناک تر نخواستن زندگي است. پس ديونوسوس راه ديگر را
مي گشايد تا دگرگونش کند. آن را به جان مي طلبد تا جانش را بگيرد.» و نيچه زبان به ستايش زندگي، و ستايش
هرچه را که باخواستن قدرت و اراده همراه باشد، مي گشايد. .....
ديونوسوس از اصول حرف نمي زند، بل زندگي را مي سازد......
هنرمند صريح است. ژرف انديشي دارد و شجاعت به دنيا آري گفتن را، دنيايي که نيک نيست( اگر نيک بود
ديگر آري گفتن بدان شهامتي نمي طلبيد و به غايت ابلهانه مي نمود»
نکته ي آخر؛ تو واقعا استقبال قشنگي از فرزندت کردي. خيلي زيباست. هميشه از کسايي که سر بچه شون غر مي زنند حرص مي خوردم. معني نداره آخه. بچه ي بيچاره رو به اين دنياي زشت دعوت مي کنيم بعد باهاش بداخلاقي هم مي کنيم!!!! اگر من بعدا اين جوري بودم حتما بهم تذکر بده ;)
پاسخحذفدرضمن خيلي قشنگ گفتي :
"I always say there are moments in life that worth all the pain and struggle we go through."
واقعا تو مادر استثنايي اي هستي و اميدوارم خانواده ي خوشبخت و شادي باشيد.
I only can say Thank you Golasa joon for your encouragement and your kind words :)
پاسخحذفیادمه چند ساله پیش، اون موقعها که بچه نمی‌‌خواستم، یکی از همکارم که خودش ۲ تا بچه داشت و خیلی هم بچه دوست داشت از م می‌‌پرسید که چرا بچه نمی‌خوام (البته خیلی آدم نازنینی بود، یه جورایی واقعا دوست داشت که من بچه دار بشم، نمیدونم چرا، مثل اینکه می‌خواست تجربهٔ منحصر به فردش رو من هم داشته باشم). من یه کمی از دلایلم رو براش توضیح دادم، و گفتم که آوردن یک انسان جدید به این دنیا تصمیم آسونی نیست و غیره و غیره. با مهربونی گوش کرد و آخرش فقط بهم گفت: تو آدم خوبی هستی و اگه بچه دار بشی تعداد آدم‌های خوب توی دنیا زیاد می‌شه.
این جملش همیشه تو یادم هست. همکارم اهل صربستان بود. از جنگ فرار کرده بود. دلیلش اون موقع منو خندوند. اما خیلی روم تاثیر گذشت. حتما به بچم میگم که با دنیا آومدنش تعداد آدمای خوب دنیا زیاد شده. چی از این بهتر؟ :)